I have the time! Finally after having no time for over 18 months, I have the time! I also have the motivation… somewhat. I also have a little bit of confidence. Not so much in my writing, just in my willingness to share. It’s been a long time since I’ve had to actually articulate anything. I’m used to texting and being lazy with my grammar, spelling and flow of sentences.
I have very supportive friends, to whom I’m very grateful to. No one has said, “Ew God no, no one gives a shit about what you have to say!”, which is my biggest fear when doing something new. In reality I don’t think it’s my friends I’m scared of when I make my thoughts and dreams public, I think it’s the old friends and the strangers, because they have nothing to lose when they read and react to a post. They can say what ever they like with no consequence, and that is what scares me.
I have to keep reminding myself that this is for me, and when I start writing for others, that’s when I need to stop. I want to commit to one blog post a week, on subjects that I’m drawn to at that time. But to be honest I’m not sure how consistent I can be, but I want to make it a goal of mine. If I was to categorise this blog page i would call it a “Lifestyle Blog”, because I feel that’s a broad category, and I’m a broad person.
I want to share my thoughts because I want to see if anyone else feels the same way! I love connecting with people, and I feel like when you become a mother you become so disconnected because your life is feeding, changing and comforting a tiny human. You forget about the other people because this tiny human consumes your life.
Baby Boomers love to say, “Welcome to motherhood.” in an incredibly condescending tone, that makes you feel inadequate…So i thought that this was it, for the rest of my life I was going to feel disconnected. I’m only just now realising that it doesn’t have to be that way!
What I’m trying to say is, I neeeeed this to help me connect, not just with others, but with myself!